I always learn so much each season, usually the lesson comes
to me through one of my girls this season was a little different. This season was one of the most emotional
seasons for me and that is saying something (I coached pregnant/post-partum
season). It has been a card game. After
tryouts I felt like I had a stacked deck (one card I wanted but didn’t play out
in my hand). Then as the deck got shuffled—I
had a girl quit and 2 girls go down with injuries. I played the hand I was dealt. I had to be flexible, which is not my
strength. I know myself pretty
well. I am passionate about volleyball
but I would not describe myself as emotional or impulsive decision maker. I choose my players on stats. I could not get these girls to come together
I had all kinds of talent but not enough team.
Personally, I felt it came from a divided coaching staff. I learned that while there have been benefits
to being the behind the scenes coach it also limits your control. I am a firm believer that if you know better
you should do better. I truly felt
stifled and the season was a disappointment.
When expectations are not met there is always disappointment. The greater the expectation the greater the
disappointment with that being said I never want to have to lower my
expectations. I always want my players
to rise to the occasion. I think on the
flip side of disappointment if you live up to high expectations it builds
confidence. I want to build confidence,
I will only continue to coach if I feel I have power to achieve
expectations. If I have to lower my
expectations to avoid the disappointment I do a disservice to myself and my
players. So when the chips are down can
you keep a poker face? Well I am who I
am if I like the cards I am holding you will know it and if my hand is no good
I won’t fold. I needed this season for
reflection to see that I was holding back and I am better than that. I don’t know if I can come to the table again
unless I am the one holding the cards.
Good thing I took a Time-out after the season ended. This was my first experience with time-out
for women I had my apprehensions but it turned out pretty good it is a long
time to sit in such a big meeting but it felt personal and I actually enjoyed
the girl time! My five words healthy, inspiring, articulate, efficient,
energetic.