I have had a headache for 6 weeks, it is progressively getting worse and sudden movements send the pain shooting. It is localized at my right temple and worse in the evening and first thing in the morning. The doctor has diagnosed it as a migraine (as if the label helps, but the pain killers do).
I have not had one last this long for 20 years! I could stay here and continue the complaining and the list of remedies I have tried, doctor’s visits etc. My dad taught me (all of my siblings at one time or another) that you can be just as sick laying down as standing up. I think this sometimes carries me over to guilt for not doing as much, feeling like it is an excuse and not a reason, but for the most part life has gone on. There are days when I just want to cry because I can’t take it anymore and days that I come out swinging and fighting through it. I think you get the point of what I feel I am “bearing” so here are the things that are make me grin.
Gratitude
Prayer this month we made a goal in our family prayers to only express gratitude and not ask for anything this has been a fun change from the “vain repetitions” with prayers of gratitude Heath adds that he is grateful for elbows, that he isn’t in foster care, lunches mom packs, the ones that aren’t skimpy.
Thanksgiving it was wonderful to share it with family. I was so grateful that we were able to stay with McKay and have a place to escape with my head. The kids also had an absolute blast! One thing I love is that we get together and have our own Turkey Bowl, I was not about to miss football with the nieces and nephews!
I like making pie, although Heath was upset I didn’t make real pumpkin pie so I owe him.
Brant’s brother also set up a photo shoot area so we could update grandma & grandpa’s board. Look at all the fun we had!
Nate took this one! |
grandpa and the granddaughters (that were there) |
We also got to meet our 2 new beautiful nieces Tenley and Mirra.
Tenley with her mom |
Mirra the mover with me. |
Marlin with Heath Marlin |
I am so grateful for the gospel. We were able to welcome home Dalton and send off Josh when Dalton was hugging everyone and telling them they had gotten so big, I ‘m so glad he didn’t say that to me I ‘m grateful for all the cousins and for their example to my son (someday all of this will be worth it)
Heres hoping Heath will grow a foot or 2 :) |
My sweet little family
If there is one thing this headache has taught me it is that this little boy
helps me grin every day I don’t think I could endure this without him! He is funny when he doesn’t know it, and not as funny when he’s trying.
The other day he said, “Mom, I think you should know if I live to be 100 years old I will never want peppers in my eggs.” When I grin at that he looks at me incredulously indicating he doesn’t want to have to tell me again. Here are some other moments that he has created so I can grin “I like that I have soft ears, I just kinda wish you didn’t like them.”
“Belly buttons are cool, I just don’t get why boys have them.”
“I think it would be better for both of us if you took a nap.”
Then on the radio the other day a car dealership was indicating credit checks with “no headaches” so, of course, Rianne said, “no headaches?” Heath quickly said, “Mom you should go there today!”
Rianne and Brant have been wonderful to step up and help too! Doing laundry, dishes, dinner, I don’t think anyone has noticed it isn’t me getting it done. On top of all that Rianne also practices piano without being asked and keeps up on her homework, and takes care of Heath too! Brant patiently lets me try every cockamamie remedy that has been suggested! I have tried peppermint oil (which does dull), magnesium, B2, well all the B vitamins, tulsi tea, going completely alkaline (aka all veggies). Lots of water, breathing techniques, caffeine, a massage, chlorophyll, I have even walked outside with my bare feet to use the magnetic energy to “ground” myself. Not to mention the blood work and tests to figure it out. My chiropractor, who has been pulling out all kinds of tricks said “this is tormenting me” I answered back with “me too”.
1 Thessalonians 5:18 In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
Maybe I’m not grateful FOR my situation right now but I can be grateful IN it, and simply grin and bear it!