Sunday, March 8, 2015

LOVE a good Game

I love a good game, I don’t just mean the swat to the behind either.  I am not much for the blow out but just a solid good game!  


Heath loves sports, ESPN and basketball (wait aren’t those all the same game?)  notice sports on the TV!    Bennett loves trains and we are trying to train him but he thinks everything is a game!

I had my apprehensions about coaching my own kid in volleyball but I think we both love it!  She brings the energy I lack and she is so great to use my knowledge of the game and seems to soak it in.   

I love this man and how he seems to be able to shoulder everything! 
 I did a candy gram ( I know you want one)
It was quite a game sneaking it to Brant’s boss was so kind to put it up and decorate his office for me. 

Brant was very surprised!
  For our anniversary (Brant was in charge) we kept it low key.  I got a IV treatment I am so used to needles I can hug them.
We did go on a small hike and even if it was just for a weekend it was great to just be us!   15 years of very good games!
 

Saturday, January 31, 2015

Easy as 1 2 3


Heath had surgery (cyst removed from jaw) it was as easy as 1-2-3.  Even though he wasn’t walking straight, he was dancing after surgery.  He was totally up for a party! J  We celebrated Bennett’s birthday I made Heath some Jell-o so he could still be part of the party.   
     1 2 3 spoil me! Bennett is 3 and is pretty easy to please, as long as he gets whatever he wants, which he usually does.  He loves Frozen and I think it is so cute that he doesn’t call him Olaf he says “appy no-man”  So to say Happy birthday to our lil’ man who we rarely hears No, we did a Frozen party.  He even got an Anna doll which he was pleased with but concerned she didn’t have her boots!        

1 he was born 17th , 2 we found out about him 19th ,and 3 on the 21st we brought him home.  We have a pick on what day to celebrate but we celebrate all three after all that is how old he is now! 

Ironically at the end of the month, I picked blood oranges (my very favorite) Bennett may not be blood but He was a perfect pick!     
 

Sunday, January 4, 2015

Fresh and New

We enjoyed ringing in the New Year with old friends.  Nothing better playing games and hanging out with the Udall’s even when we are doing “Nothing at all”! It was so good to see the Davis’ too

Bennett decided he wanted fresh new clothes so he tried to go for a swim. 

Rianne had a new experience going to a dance and no boys got fresh J
Something rare for Thatcher and we came home to fresh new snow. 

Which we enjoyed even some more when we returned home love that white and clean fresh new start of the New year!   






Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Swinging Santa

Christmas came full swing too fast maybe not having snow made it feel farther away. We had to make some adjustments to my treatments, which is frustrating because I want to move forward with the fight but at least I am not as sick just swollen.   We enjoyed parties and music and visitors swinging by with treats.  We had a few secret Santa surprises and someone did the 12 days of Christmas to us.  I can’t believe how much those little visits lifted our spirits; we were overwhelmed with that show of kindness.  It is hard to even express how much it meant to us and how much we needed it, even when we didn’t realize it.

We swung into Kanab for Christmas Eve nativity

Grandpa is the best narrator and
Mary & Joseph were the cutest ever.  This Christmas Eve tradition is one of my very favorites and Heath was a great donkey too. 
We loved Christmas with Grandma & Grandpa and we were so glad to have Natalie’s family there too!  We like building better relationships and Bennett was loving Kajia’s Frozen dolls
  Rianne loves surprises and loves doing the Santa prep.  Nearly every Santa surprise was snooped out by the boys and we had to readjust gifts.  Ria was certain she wouldn’t have any surprises she knew all of her gifts too. 
She didn’t have too many things on her list just: Hailey, (a friend who moved) jeggings, jeans and mint shampoo.  My highlight was swinging a Santa surprise for her Jolly Ol’ St. Nick said  “she could Ring in the New Year with an Old friend”. 
She was delighted with gas cards!   The Boys were very pleased with Christmas too! 
My parents went in on a gift for Mr. Clean too! 
One thing I love about being the mom is that Christmas really becomes about joy of giving and makes me feel closer to Christ who gave the ultimate gift.
We are looking forward to swinging in a New Year. 

Here is our Christmas letter too.            

  

Sunday, November 30, 2014

pie in the face


 
I asked Brant if he was frustrated with me and all the health stuff, if it was putting too much on him.  In Brant fashion he said “I hate Lyme, Jana I love you they are not the same”.   To him it is that simple I do a decent job of separating the two or at least avoiding having them together.  Separating the two that is the emotional aspect I have been avoiding addressing. Really it has been an emotional battle a different sort of self-discovery.  I use all the avoidance techniques possible but then it comes and hits ME in the face.  I like to make pie, it is therapeutic and with volleyball over I guess I am missing therapy. So I guess I will hash it out on my blog.  I didn’t want to admit it, I was going to have a good enough day to make it happen, I bought the ingredients it is mind over matter and I kept telling myself I can do this.  Into the pie crust I went my favorite part, only it wasn’t therapeutic at all it hurt, and then it hurt my heart and tears don’t mix well with pie crust, I had to admit I couldn’t do it.  Heath rescued me he mixed the pie crust, he kept asking "does it look right mom" but I couldn’t see much through my tears.  The crust turned out fine Rianne did the fillings.   They weren’t pretty but they tasted great.  If I wouldn’t have been so consumed with my self-pity I would have some pictures.  I guess the thing that really hits me in the face these are NOT new symptoms I have had all of them before just not all at once.    
 
So this holiday it was winning the faceoff.  The new symptom broke me, thrown in my face through the holiday.  The new one is the throwing up.  The some days of September when I can’t keep down my pills has taken a turn to nearly every day.  It is bulimia with no weight loss benefit in fact gaining weight BLAHHH.  Just to save face I agreed to let Brant officially share the news it is Lyme not me, although I am feeling it!      

Gratitude in all things even when it is pie to the face…        We did get to go to my favorite place on earth!  Kanab did not disappoint perfect weather the two best fall sports in the world with family and food!    
 

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Panther Tracks


This year I did a train analogy for each game I enjoyed the motivational moments.  The first warning you have that a train is coming is the whistle, which is all the other team’s we will face get too, from the first blow of the whistle, it is on.  I shared why I was all aboard this season, that I felt tied to these girls with railroad ties.   I gave them boarding pass for a winning destination.  And tried to motivate them to TRAIN:  T.EAM’S R.ELENTLESS A.TTITUDE  I.NTESITY  N.OW.   They started the season 4-0.  The steam engine is considered the most powerful idea in the world.  No one person invented the steam engine. It was a case of many small inventions being put together until a specific need was met.  Steam engine was the first form of human generated power. With it, you could power a locomotive, and pull hundreds of tons at high speed.  Steam engine not brilliant inspiration on the part of an individual, but the combined efforts of many people, each building on what someone else had discovered.  Steam engines are powered with water and fire.  Put your heads together and go full steam ahead!  They lost a little steam but learned lose and win as a team that is what I know about us ;)

Then with a lucky penny they shook it off and crushed   the next 2 teams they were loaded with panthers and leaving tracks stepping into victory.  After a long week something switched the other team had a switchman like this:  A man worked in the head office of one of the railroads. One day he received a telephone call from his counterpart in Newark, New Jersey, who said that a passenger train had arrived without its baggage car. The patrons were angry. They discovered that the train had been properly made up in Oakland, California, and properly delivered to St. Louis, from which station it was to be carried to its destination on the east coast. But in the St. Louis yards, a switchman had moved a piece of steel just three inches. That piece of steel was a switch point, and the car that should have been in Newark, New Jersey, was in New Orleans, Louisiana, thirteen hundred miles away.  We had reached a low point, we are in the heal position,  which is when the engine is loading up, when the coal is being shoveled into the fire Chugga Chugga we had to dig out from a loss which is what they CHOO-CHOOsed to do.  Learched forward got fired up and blew away the next 3 teams. 

For the big Flag High game I let them know: Our track always goes through Flag High and each of our Railroad ties include this as a Winning stop.  From the first whistle blow, we are in pursuit of it.  I am certain you have the winning ticket, we have loaded up for it.  They will put things in our path I know it will take a lot of steam but we can crush them.  You are the part of flipping that switch and our record is about to flip to 10! I think we CAN, the chugga- chugga choo- choo it is up to you!  We are Wound to Win!  WIN will come when we link with WORK.   W has more points at the top but it will take some climb to end up on top but I know these Panthers and they can Climb!  I am wound up for the Win Let’s get to work and ride this TRAIN to a W.  Although we didn’t come through with the W I felt like the track from last year was cleared.  They came back from the loss on fire winning their next 4 matches and beating the next team in one match 25-3 and knocking off the #1 ranked team!   I gave them a little reminder with personal crossing sign reminding them they were crossing into heavy competition.  Our train stopped traffic and crossed through with a BIG win!  

Like the polar express we kept the hot streak coming not to let it cool we set our standard just like a train.  The track is exactly four-foot, eight-and-a-half-inches wide. That standard was set by George Stephenson, A mine worker he worked in different mines the width of the rails varied from mine to mine since they didn't share tracks.  He simply chose to make the rails for his project 4-foot, eight ½ inches wide.  Train tracks that run across highest peaks and through valleys have that standard.  We set the standard by how we choose to play from the highest ranked team to the lowest, our standard should not change.

As the season came to a close we ended up 13-4 with an  8-1 home record, Then we came through the Tunnel at Sate.   We finished with a 14-5 record.  When it was all over and we all came through our arms came up with 5th or 6th place finish at state.      


This is not the season I wanted it was the season I needed.  While I wanted to come back and thought it was for the girls, through the course of the season I realized I needed it more for me.  I watched these seniors through 3 coaching changes, I wanted them to have some consistency.  What I didn’t realize is I needed the consistency of coaching more than they needed me. Coaching volleyball is just a part of me, It has been something I do but this season did something for me.  I live for the strategy for the stats and even the struggle to improve or get better.  .
When I received my treatment plan (strategy) for beating Lyme  and I have watched my numbers fluctuate like our (stats).  Things I thought I could beat have been set backs and fighting away from home when a win seemed impossible has come through. 

My treatments have paralleled our season like a perfectly spaced railroad track.  It really has been my therapy, maybe that is why I am struggling with the end of the track.  This has been my source of balance.  I am a little scared to be without it, holding me up making me push through.  I will Need to TRAIN and stay on track big wins are just around the bend.   Llife is like an old-time rail journey—delays, sidetracks, smoke, dust, cinders, and jolts, interspersed only occasionally by beautiful vistas and thrilling bursts of speed. The trick is enjoying the ride.  Thanks for the ride panthers I have really enjoyed it truly therapeutic for me!


I was so grateful that as Katie’s first coach I was able to say a few words at her division 1 signing!  I have been so blessed to coach her!  Now I can be a bit COCKY well for a minute club season is just around the corner.     

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Stinkin' Sweet Halloween

 We kept Halloween pretty simple this year. 
Rianne was sweet grapes Heath was a stinkin’ spider.   
I was a sweet flower and Bennett was a stinkin’ cute skunk. 
Quick trunk or treat and a few trick or treat doors.  Bennett loves to say “ahhh scary” and make ghost faces. 
If he sees anything Halloween (pumpkins, ghosts, skeletons etc.) he points and says “boo”.  It is a holiday all for him funny faces and candy!